A few weeks ago I posted a post I wrote random in June of 2010 and I found another one I wrote back then when I was praying for a job. I had just gotten out of graduate school and was struggling trying to find a job. It is funny to sometimes go back and read things you wrote years ago to see how your life has changed in that time period. This is from July 2, 2010.
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So I am currently going through this Bible Study called What Do You Do With Your Wait by Mike Harder. Definitely speaks to where I am currently in my life. Anyway, he says something really thought provoking (like most Bible studies do)-
“First you have to learn to trust that the place you are in right now, although it may stink, is the place God wants you (for the time being). Then consider what you need to learn in spite of your circumstances; in other words, get better at what you already do. Even now God is training you for the future assignment He has for you , and He rewards diligence.”
Wow! I don’t think there are any better words to describe it. Of course, knowing it and actually conditioning your brain to believe it really are two different things. As much as I know I am where I am because God wants me here, it is still a very difficult place to be. But God puts us in places we don’t like, puts us in situations we cannot see a way out of, puts us in times when we get very, very frustrated and the best thing we can do? Just trust Him. It sounds easy when you write it down, Just trust Him? That is all I have to do? Wow that should be easy! Notice my sarcasm because it isn’t. It is definitely not easy to trust God when He sees our future and I can barely see two steps in front of me.
What happens if we don’t trust Him? I don’t know that answer either but I do know and believe 100% that anything and everything God has for me is far better and far greater than anything I can try to do myself. And the biggest problem with trying to do things for yourself? Getting in the way of His plan for you. Is it worth it? Not in my opinion. Now of course this doesn’t mean you can just sit around and do nothing and wait for God to bring things your way, because it doesn’t happen like that. God appreciates the effort, I think He rewards the effort. I know this job search is His way of saying, I have something for you and either you am not ready or it just isn’t there yet but as long as you remain faithful and wait for me what I have for you is far better and far greater than anything you can do for yourself. Amen.