They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint
Isaiah 40:31
This verse always inspires me. It is the verse I have been leaning on the most during this season of life. Life will never be like we “plan” it to be. I mean, what business do I have “planning” life? Really? Of course it isn’t that simple, is it? I am not always one to talk about my struggles but I will say this past year has not been easy.
I graduated with my M.Ed and hoped to find a teaching job. I had one lined up and at the very last minute it was taken away from me. Too late for any other the other jobs as they were all taken. Does it frustrated me? To the end. Some days I am overwhelmed with the fact of how unfair it was. It was taken away because of a tenured situation where someone was tenured & their job was lost & so mine was taken away. I think what bothers me the most about it is not that it happened but how it was handled. How I was told and have been treated since.
I don’t know, it isn’t like I feel like I am owed something because I most certainly am not but it is just frustrating feeling like I have made nothing of my life and where I think I should be. I realize I just got out of school not even a year ago but sometimes it seems like all hope is lost.
It is at those moments when I reflect on this verse and know that I just need to keep hoping on the Lord and He will renew my strength. He is what keeps me going knowing that it isn’t an accident and there is a purpose I am where I am. I mean, for all I know the job that I am supposed to have just isn’t open yet? God’s timing doesn’t work how mine does. I can put deadlines and limits on life all I want but it isn’t going to do anything. There is a church near my house that has wonderful church signs (thinking of that I have been actually meaning to take a picture of it….) but it currently says:
Hard? heck yes! But can I do it? Yes I can. And sometimes I realize how ridiculous I am being. There are a lot worse situations I could be in, a lot worse and I recognize that.
hello! i bet something even better is just around the corner…
This is one of my favorite verses! Keep your focus on our Heavenly Father and He will provide in His timing!
Oh yah, it is hard to be patient when unfair things happen. But you know when one door closes another always opens. Keep an eye out for that open door and that job will be better than the one you didnt get. My husband always tried to get certain jobs and for one reason or another didnt. Now that we look bad, some went out of business, some turned out bad etc and he is on the perfect spot for him right now. God makes no mistakes!!
Diana
I am SO sorry you are going through ~ I understand and it’s not fun! You know in your heart that He has something wonderful in store for you and when it arrives, you will appreciate and enjoy it that much more.
For many reasons, I don’t agree with tenure. Hang in there, new postings are on their way. Keep your eyes open and listen to your heart.
Jo
That is a good verse!! I agree, it’s so hard to be patient. You know God will work it out, but you want it to be now. I guess we’ve just got to learn to trust Him more. It can be so hard sometimes though.
Hope things start looking up for you soon!
amen to that!!! it is SO hard waiting on God and waiting on life when you think you have such a great plan and you think you have a handle on things.
sometimes i think that God throws us for that loop just to show us, once again, that we really have no control over our lives.
It is so hard to wait. God always seems to come through at the eleventh hour…but that always seems to be just a few hours after my patience runs out!
Blessings on you during this difficult time.
Rebecca